Saturday, September 19, 2009

I'm still here.

Um, hi, readers if there are any left.

I... we haven't posted for a while. Months? Years? I don't remember. I don't think it was years. That was dramatic of me to say.

It's Dan, if anyone was wondering.

It won't be Ali again.

A few months ago, Ali suffered a relapse. Leukemia, for those who forgot. A few weeks later, she was still in a hospital bed. I visited her everyday.

One day, she smiled at me and said, "I like you. You aren't annoying."

She was pretty hyped up on drugs. Pain-killers. "I like you too, Ali." I forced a smile.

She shook her head, like she was drunk. "No. I LIKE you."

I really love Ali. More than anything and when she said that, I think I ran out of the room and into the bathroom. I must've cried for a while.

I think she knew she wasn't going to last much longer.

Anyway, she asked me to continue this blog, because she thought it would help me. I don't want to, but she did.

I've put this off for a long time, but now, as I write, or type, or whatever, I feel closer to her.

Thank you for reading. I'll post again soon.



Mr. Norrel said...

Oh, God. I'm sorry man. My thoughts are with you.

Lauren said...

Is she...

Luna Jamnia said...

I don't know what to say ... except I'm sorry.
It's tough stuff like this that makes us realize how much we really care about each other, no matter how we pretended not to or got on each others' nerves before.
I didn't know how much I really loved and cared about my grandparents until they were gone (they didn't ever get on my nerves though).